dead now march


Can you see it? It's right here in front of me right now. Watch!No! Good heavens!
We know when: now.
Can ....did you say you can see it?
I don't know. I'm freaking out.

We know when: now.
Can...did you say you can see it?

The Story

The first stages of healing have begun but it will be a long and difficult road. "Can you see it? It's right here in front of me right now. Watch! No. Oh good heavens." These are the words that start dead now march. Now that the artist has had a glimpse of the truth he wants it right away. But soon he will find out that by wanting it too much, by looking too hard he will never attain it. The character is torn between what has happened to him, what was and what can be. He wants to be well. This is a trap. He is living in the states of imagination (future) and memory (past); of wanting things to be what they are not because of longing; because of desire It is only in letting go of what we expect, what we desire the moment to be and simply accept what is that we can fully be in the present.

The Music

We hear broken awkward instruments depicting our character beginning to walk for the first time. He struggles to maintain hope because he is not focusing on the present but rather wanting to glimpse the same truth he encountered in gone, gone. His desires and attachments are strong but he must be reminded that the only moment is the present one. Once he loses all hope and becomes weak again, the music breaks down and our second truth comes through. "We know when, now" is sung and gives the character an answer. "Did you say you can see it? ", "I don't know I'm freaking out." The artist is beginning to see it but it is only in not seeing that we are able to truly see. The trumpet melody that we heard in gone, gone makes its second appearance and signals that the artist now understands. The clunky loop comes back in and when the beat renters, it is accompanied by heavy guitars and distorted drums. The artist is stronger and more hopeful than before. The present moment, although awkward, painful and unknown, is now celebrated. At the end we hear, "Did you say you can see it?" and the response is just laughter for now the character sees....truly sees.